Jeaously

What is that u see in others that make you jealous? 

it is not that they have it. it is that you do not have it. 

when u have something and others try to flaunt the same thing. 

you do not feel jealous. you either ignore it or try to flaunt yours as well. 

so when you start feeling jealous - try to acheive it . 

note to self 

Weakness, Anger , Jealousy, Denial

All of us have these qualities .
When we know to control them it's good but when they start to control you , you are beyond repair.

I envy Rich and Light as they do not possess any of these qualities.

How is it that men are tuned like this ?

I am so mad that I want to cry

hate and friendship

You hate someone for some reason
and then it becomes so long you have no feelings towards them.
they become a stranger.
why would someone hate a stranger...

then again, you think of a incident about this person and then all the hatred returns.

mind and feelings are so complicated.

coming to friendship...

u are friends with someone and u r bffs.. then u get into a conflict and u drift apart but u miss them constantly and then one fine day u meet them , get back to where you left off and it
1. either feels the same
2. or completely different

some friends drift away

some friends become closer

you make some new friends

you loss some old friends...

end of the day - LIFE GOES ON ! 

God or not

I used to be a very pious person. I used to go to temple everyday.

Pray and do all the regular things a religious person does.

Is it the influence of my brother or life.. I do not know... I guess both...

I kind of question everything related to God and Religion

Its been almost 3 to 4 months since I have been to a temple.

Enna nadakuthu inga?

Ayaa Periyaare... enna panni vachi irukinga engala? 

I have gone crazy

 I have become very philosophical now a days.

thathuva mazhaiya pozhiyuthu....

I think it is time again to start blogging.

I know it has been a long long break. But I have my own reasons.

Poet Valli passed away today.

This year has taken a lot of people from the earth. We have good half a year to pass before we can have a sign of relief !

When I read this news, I was thinking about my brother.
Being a huge fan of Valli , earlier works of Vairamuthu , and writer Sujatha....

This news will make him very sad.

A person lives.... and he passes away. What happens to him? What happens to the people near him?

It hits you hard everyday.

Whenever you see his toothbrush,
When you receive a mail in his name,
When you sometime see one of his shirt drying in the clothline outside.

It ripes your heart out when you know that you will not be able to see him / talk to him / hug him anymore.

It just makes me think about it.

I pray for each person who has lost someone to have the strength to move on.

RIP Valli Sir. You were always my most favourite and will remain so forever!

it feels so suffocating. :( 

pressure

locked in a small room .

no breathing space or air inside that room.

the room is closing in.

jus pressure...

and the best part is, no one can understand or no one is helping...

its not jus one form of issue which nags me ....

if not for my amma, i dont know what i will be doing now.